;_;

I feel so empty....

I gave myself to a person.... invested 5 years of my life... and in the end... never really knowing who I was married to.... I was so nieve.... nothing else really matters to him... soon he will be free... and he has his citizenship...

What have I done... I can't believe I was so stupid to think that he would someday see me... and be deeply sorry... and love me and want me... god i was so blind... all this hurts so much... and I feel like all the energy is being sucked out of me with no where to recharge... I need some peace... I just want to be happy & loved... is that so much to ask...